I just painted my nails. Ahhhhh.. My world is finally starting to slowly right itself.
Mark got "home" from the hospital on Tuesday evening. We will have to do home health care twice a week to change this sponges on his wound vac and then once a week we will go to the doctor's office to have it changed. I really have to say and I think Mark will agree that the dressing changes are the worst part of this whole thing. I have debated posting a pic of his foot (and he doesn't care if I do) but I decided not to because some people just do not want to see that, and that's cool. I am still trying to get used to seeing his new foot so I get it. But, I can do all things..
Wound Vac changes involve the clear sticky film being peeled off his foot and then having the sponge removed from the vacuum and then the sponge packing pulled out of the "toe hole" and then having his foot and toe hole cleaned and repacked. The whole thing only takes 15-20 minutes but its horrible. The first Doctor to change the dressing told Mark that it would be excruciating the first time but promised him that each time would get easier because each time it would be a couple more days healed. He has had three dressing changes so far and so far, each one has been minimally but noticeably relatively less painful. It's still just awful though. However, he can do all things..
The whole idea of the wound vac is pretty cool the way it heals from the inside. I pray that it works the way it supposed to or it could mean the loss of his foot. Both Doctors and the Nurse that have changed it are very encouraged by the pink tissue and the flow of blood that they say. So, yay?
I did get to look in the " toe hole" yesterday and it was ....pink and bloody. I actually could see a little bit of the foot bone and that was slightly off putting but I am learning a lot and want to be able to best take care of my husband. Like I said, I can do all things..
To be honest, he is pretty down. He is in pain and is frustrated at his lack of mobility and despite me telling him I am figuring things out, worried about our financial status and work status. I know he worries about me not sleeping and not eating but I try really hard to keep up a brave face in front of him. Truth is, this is stressful. Like...really really stressful on so many levels. We can do all things..
We did get some good news from work that since he will be out 5-6 more weeks they can give him a medical release from his truck lease with no penalty. Then when he is released to go back to work we will just get a new truck. Downside is Andrew and I have to drive down there (Greer, SC) Saturday to clean out the truck and that is going to be a chore. We can do all things...
It will be sad but I am super excited to get to spend some time with my mini me, Andrew. He is doing great in trucking school and really likes it. I could not be more proud of him and am so excited to see him. It still freaks me out to think of him driving one of those huge tractor/trailers! He can do all things..
Adam is doing well in Cullowhee. He is working full time and will be attending a community college in the fall to take a one year course to become and HVAC tech . He is learning A LOT of "adulty" things lately and I am so proud of him. He had an accident last weekend and had soley been the one to handle the insurance company, finance company and body shop. It's all about growing up and he is doing a bang up job. Hate that his car is totalled, but so thankful he is ok. The car is totaled so we still have to figure out how to get him another car. Reminding myself, I can do all things...and so can Adam.
Our son Tyler also just landed a sweet new job at a Toyota Dealership in Pueblo. He is an auto technician there. His lovely wife also got a job at a new salon and she starts next week. We are so proud of how hard they are working to better their lives.
So, in small little steps things are improving. I do have to say that sweet, sweet friends flew in on Angel wings and very lovingly paid for two weeks of hotel for us, so that takes some pressure off for a bit for me to figure things out. We will never be able to thank them enough. Currently trying to find a cheaper rental car since we have to have wheels and this one is pricey. Really wishing we had our own car right now! We have some healthy groceries (thanks to another amazing friend) so we are just hanging out, healing and working on life changes and trying to be patient with all of this and reminding ourselves that we can do all things...
Thanks for reading. Thanks for praying. Thanks for keeping us in your thoughts. We need it!
Much love to all.